30 Days, 30 Scenes {Day 6} Whatevs Scene One

This past weekend sucked. There really isn’t a better description for it. Other than a few bright spots, it was a crap fest.

I decided to use my Whatevs category to write a love letter to myself and to you. If you’re feeling bad, if  other people’s expectations of you are wearing you down, if the comments from others are crippling, then this is for you. This is for us.

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A little reminder that His all encompassing love for us is more than the circumstances of our life. His love is more than enough. We are enough to Him.

30 Days, 30 Scenes {Day 5} Photograph Scene 1

Even though my descent originates from the British Isles and Germany, I have always felt attached to Native American culture. Maybe I wouldn’t feel this way if my mom didn’t take us to Pow Wows growing up.


This is an image that I pinned on Pinterest months ago. It reminded me of a documentary I saw about a man who was the last of his tribe. He lived in the mountains as a hermit and did not venture into society until he felt he was dying and needed help. I thought it would be interesting to write a movie from his perspective.

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30 Days, 30 Scenes {Day 3} Music Scene 1

After four days, our car was finally ready to be picked up from the mechanic. Praise the Lord! Since I had to follow Hunny to drop off the car we were borrowing, I was able to do a little driving. I have taken to listening to classical music in the car. When one chauffeurs an inquisitive preschooler around in a vehicle that has neither CD player nor input for MP3 devices, it forces one to listen to lyric free music.

This piece came on the radio and it made me think of silent films. I thought about Charlie Chaplin and the 1920’s. The 1920’s made me think about flappers and prohibition, which led to the scene I wrote for today.


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I can’t believe I’ve made it through these past three crazy days. I’m hoping that the rest of the month is smooth sailing!

30 Days, 30 Scenes {Day 2} Emotion Scene 1

My second day of this series was even less conducive to writing than yesterday. I’m too tired to get into the particulars, but it involves Yeeyum and Cupcake having their pictures made. Their grandmother loves to have their pictures taken. Her house is basically a shrine to her grandchildren.

After making dinner, bathing the baby, and putting him down for the night, I decided to give myself five quiet minutes on the couch. I hadn’t written my scene yet and I didn’t know what to write. I had prayed this morning about what to write, even though I was unable to write anything all day. I closed my eyes and thought about it.

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Let’s see if I have a quieter day tomorrow and am able to write and share earlier in the day.

30 Days, 30 Scenes {Day 1} Art Scene 1

Today was NOT the best day to start this series. Hunny has some sort of flu thing. Yeeyum has some sort of stomach thing. Our sole vehicle is getting work done on it, and we’re borrowing a Jeep that is a manual transmission, which I don’t know how to drive. Cupcake had a violent allergic reaction to some soap her grandmother gave her (It was Crabtree and Evelyn, so who knows to which ingredient she’s allergic!). I have been working on one scene for the better part of a day, but I don’t know how long it would be if you distilled the time I was working from the time I was interrupted and had to tend to sick people, messes, and the like.

This scene is based on a mixed media piece called “Katy Nelson.”  It features buildings from downtown Asheville, NC.

Here is the scene for today.

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I’ll have another scene for you tomorrow… Hopefully…


30 Days, 30 Scenes

Seven years ago, I found myself on the set of a major motion picture. I was an extra for Leatherheads. Don’t remember it? Yeah, me neither. But I do remember being on set and thinking, I was made for this. I have never felt so natural and at home doing anything as I did being on that set. I haven’t experienced that feeling since being an extra for Blood Done Sign My Name. That wasn’t as peaceful an experience, because I went with someone who complained the whole time.

Seven years later and I feel further away from film.

Don’t get me wrong, some wonderful things have happened since I was an extra the first time. I met Hunny. We got married. We started a family. I started this blog. We moved to a place we can call home. All truly wonderful events, but nothing that has taken me closer to film.

To commemorate the anniversary of finding what I was meant to do, I am doing two things for the month of April: wearing red lipstick everyday like I did on set and writing a scene a day. I will write three different scenes from ten different prompts:

Color: Randomly pick a color from the box. Use that color in the scene in some way.

Music: Base a scene on a piece of music, its lyrics or its movement.

Photograph: Find a picture and write a scene about what is happening in the picture.

Autobiographical: Scene based on a life event (Don’t worry. You won’t be in them nor will my Sister. You’re the only two people I know in person who read this blog!).

Emotion: Write a scene that conveys a feeling.

Behind the Scenes: A scene about what happens that no one else sees. This can be at home, at work, or anything that the average person doesn’t know about.

Bon Mot: Dialogue driven scene.

Genre: Pick a genre, write a scene. Horror, RomCom, Period Piece, Drama, Family Friendly, Indie, B-Movie, etc.

Art: A scene based on a piece of art.

Whatevs: This is my freebie category. I can write whatever I want! I can share a scene from a screenplay I’m working on. I do what I want!

I’m proud of myself for celebrating instead of throwing myself a pity party. I’ve had enough of being sad and feeling awful. I’m going to celebrate, enjoy myself, and share my joy with you!


Project Positivity (Week One, Take Two)

Wow, you guys.  Wow.

Week one, take two lasted two days.  Two.  But the second time around, I learned something.  Something invaluable.  I know the best way to change your attitude.  I’ve known it all along, and I somehow forgot the way.


If your attitude is bad towards someone, pray.  If their attitude is bad toward you, pray.  If your attitude is bad toward work, pray.  If your attitude is bad toward your family, pray.


Praying for people who have wronged you is never easy.  At first.  Afterward, you wonder why you waited so long to pray for them.  Even when they are still crappy toward you and you wish you never had to associate with them again (That sounded a little specific.  Oops.).  Keep praying and never give up!

I’m not going to stop meditating.  I’m not going to stop attempting to fit exercise into my crazy kid filled life.  But I am going to stop this project, because  I believe what I was looking for I had with me the whole time.

It’s the closest thing I have to ruby slippers.

Instead, I’m going to use the next 21 days to form a writing habit.

Everyday Notebook

I have a new Hero(ine)

I hope all my American readers had a fantastic Labor Day.  I spent the weekend attempting to relax, which is not easy in my house.  I love relaxing, but Hunny does not have any idea how to relax.  I think it part of it has to do with his upbringing, always being on the go and never being still.  Add an eleven month old who’s getting his eighth tooth…  Not much relaxing….

I got on facebook to see if I could vicariously relax through someone else’s relaxation, and I found a mentor instead.  I follow Script Magazine on facebook and they posted a link to a talk that Charlie Kaufman gave to BAFTA.  I don’t know much about Charlie Kaufman other than he wrote Adaptation and he’s the definition of neurotic.  However, he’s a highly respected screenwriter and it would be disrespectful and foolish not to listen to what he has to say.

When I followed the link, there was a list of screenwriters who gave talks.  A sole woman was on the list: Moira Buffini.  I had never heard of her before.  She reminded me of one of my college friends, so I thought, I’d love to hear a woman’s perspective on the screenwriting journey.

It was beyond encouraging to hear a woman so passionate about writing and film and so positive about her experiences.  It reignited my passion and added positivity to my daily struggle and toil to write something.

I’m listening to her talk again today, and I’d like to share it with you.

Happy Anniversary!! (Three Years of Polite Paranoia)


I’ve been doing this blog for three years.  Only three people I know read it.  One of them is Hunny, and he listens to me read it aloud because he’s not much of a reader.  The fact that you are reading this blog is a miracle and I am thankful that you have stuck it out with me and read my posts.  I really appreciate having an audience for my voice.  Especially since being married, a caregiver, and a mother is time consuming, to say the least, and sadly this blog is the bulk of my writing.

Since this is the start of a New Year for Polite and (Paranoid), I would like to share three goals with you:

  • Share 3 posts with you a week
  • Share a short video monthly
  • Share how my non blog writing is going

Now, let’s celebrate!!