Thirsty Thursday: Pink Roses

I am not a gardener. I am not all that great with indoor plants, either. I think my orchid is dead, but I can’t let it go. It was a gift from Hunny! When I saw rose bushes in the Aldi seasonal aisle, I really wanted to get one. But I wanted to be smart about it and wait until they went on sale.

Towards the end of the season, they still weren’t on sale. I love roses and even though I knew it was too late to plant them, I caved and bought two: a pink rose and a yellow rose. I’m not a yellow gal, but I thought it might be nice to try something different for a change.

The miniature rose bush my father gave me for Mother’s Day three years ago is thriving under my minimal care and attention. It had already produced a multitude of tiny velvety red roses. I had a feeling the rose blossoming season was over when I asked Hunny to plant the new additions, but I asked God if He would let the pink rose bush bloom just one flower before fall. Just because He loves me, the rose bush bloomed several pink flowers that filled the air with their perfume.

My dad happened to drop by when one of the flowers bloomed. I wanted him to see how well his present was doing, and I wanted him to see the pink rose. I didn’t want to tell him that I had prayed for God to make it bloom. It felt embarrassing. Shouldn’t I be praying about grander, loftier things? I can’t tell my dad that I asked God for a rose. It’s so stupid! In spite of my embarrassment, I added, “I prayed God would let this one bloom,” after showing him the roses. My dad didn’t laugh at me. He nodded his head and said, “Oh.” He’s a man of few words, in case you were wondering.

A month or so later, a friend came over to visit with her children and a tag-along. After Cupcake took them to see the chickens, I felt like I should say something about the roses, even though I really didn’t want to say anything! I wanted them to see how lovely they were, but I didn’t want to admit to yet another person that my prayers were so goofy. But I did it anyway. “I asked God to make this rose bush bloom, and He did. See how great they look?” My words were bolder than my feelings inside. “Cool!” My friend didn’t laugh at me, either.

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My rose bush is still blooming! This picture is from today!

Mini Roses from My Dad

Today’s picture of the roses from my dad.

Don’t be ashamed to share the small victories in your life. Any and every prayer answered is a beacon of Light. It is additional proof of God’s Love, Existence, and Mercy. We don’t know what other people are praying for and about. They may be praying for healing or salvation for a loved one or transportation or that the clothes they need will go on sale so they can afford them. God really does care about us. He cares about our big and small worries. He wants us to come to Him with everything. Even the things that may seem like nothing to others that may mean everything to us.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time He may exalt you; casting all your anxieties upon Him, because He cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7, emphasis mine

Thirsty Thursday: Peace

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. John 14:27

These are the words Jesus spoke to His disciples before His arrest, before His crucifixion. How could Jesus be so calm? How could He tell His closest followers to not be afraid or troubled when He knew the horror of what was coming?

Jesus said to him,“I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” John 14:6

Because Jesus is God’s Son, He knew the BIG picture. He knew He had to die to save the world. In order to save you and me, He would die.

For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23

I cannot have a relationship with God without Jesus. You cannot know God without Jesus. Jesus is the only way. We cannot have eternal life without Him. We only have eternal death.

If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

There’s one catch. You. You have to pray. You have to trust. You have to admit that you are not perfect and you will never be perfect. You have to admit that you do the wrong thing. You sin. I sin. Everyone sins.

For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16

Believing that Jesus died on the cross for your sins and for my sins will save you. Only then can you truly know peace.

And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7

Thirsty Thursday: A Call to Prayer

I usually use my Thirsty Thursday posts to share what I’m learning, what God is sharing with me, and what I’ve read that has spoken to me. Since this is my blog, I’m using this post as a call to prayer. For me.

My father was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) when I was eight. Around Christmas, he was unable to walk, became paralyzed for some time, and was bed ridden for six months. My mother’s mother had RA, and my mother has been diagnosed with Lupus and Fibromyalgia.

Last Tuesday, my elbows, wrists, and knuckles simultaneously began to throb. The pain was excruciating. Then my hands were in pain, felt like they were on fire, and like the insides of my hands would burst through my skin. For the rest of the week, I felt pain and my hands were stiff. I looked up hand exercises to do and they were difficult to perform.

This week, my energy levels have plummeted. I am exhusted. I lay in bed in the morning and pray for help to get out of it. I haven’t felt this tired since I was pregnant with Yeeyum. I have cookies and a birthday cake to make for Cupcake’s birthday party this weekend, but I have no idea how I’m going to do it. Other family birthdays, my anniversary, and Christmas are all around the corner. I have gifts to make and purchase. I really need my energy back.

I am praying for healing. I know God can heal me if it is His will.  He can glorify Himself through my healing. However, this might be my “thorn in the flesh” that God will use to mold me into the woman He created me to be. Pray that God will reveal Himself to me and let me know if He will give me the strength and grace to handle an illness or if He will take it away.

Thank you for your prayers. I desperately need them.

Thirsty Thursday: Totally Unprepared

You know how I’m always talking about how God answers prayers? Well, God answered a prayer that has left me an emotional mess. So much so that I have been trying to write this post (and others) for weeks and have found myself completely incapable of writing anything.

Mr. Bill & Mrs. Peggy are Cupcake and Yeeyum’s third set of grandparents. They work in the nursery at church and brag on the kids as if they were their own grandchildren (or great grandchildren). Mrs. Peggy became like a grandmother to me, which was wonderful considering I lost both of mine in 2009. It was nice to have someone to give advice to me and talk about when they were young and care about me.

Mr. Bill & Mrs. Peggy’s family live in the mid east and they have had their house on the market to sell for four years. We have known them almost two years and have been praying about their house selling for as long as we’ve known they wanted to move. Mr. Bill would always say, “We’re never going to move,” and jokingly, “Maybe I should pray to the devil and see if he answers my prayers.”

Even though I was praying for them to be able to move, I kept hearing Mr. Bill say they would never move and I started to doubt. People would look at their house and not make an offer on it. Or they would have a viewing scheduled and the people wouldn’t show up. One couple offered way less than the asking price, and Mr. Bill & Mrs. Peggy had to turn down the offer. When Mrs. Peggy told me last month that their house sold and that they would have to be out in a month, I jumped up and down, hugged her, and burst into tears.

Last night was the final time I would see them before the move. I didn’t know what to say other than I love you. Having them move away is like losing my grandmothers all over again. Painful, emotional, and difficult to discuss.

I don’t know when we’ll see them again. I do know that God will continue to answer their prayers, your prayers, and mine. And I’m praying that God will provide a way that we can visit them!

Thirsty Thursday: Prayer is Powerful

I know, it’s not Thursday. I wasn’t able to post yesterday because the internet didn’t want to work. I was really annoyed and frustrated about it… Until now.

Hunny and I desperately need a car. We poured all our extra money into fixing the one we have and it still isn’t safe to drive. It is our sole means of transportation (Where we live there is no public transportation that we can use to get places, so a vehicle is our only option). My Sister needed a car, too. Even though she is moving somewhere that has reliable public transportation, she felt she needed a car.

I challenged Hunny to pray that God would give us a car. God knows we need one. He also knows we do not have the money to buy one. Hunny decided since we were praying for a car to be given to us, we would pray that a car would be given to my Sister.

Someone gave her a car. A nice car.

My reaction was, SEE!! We PRAYED that!!! She wouldn’t have a car if we hadn’t asked God to give her one!!!

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. Mark 11:24

Sometimes we pray and we don’t see an answer right away. Sometimes prayers get answered years later. Sometimes we pray and we see the answer within the week! We prayed for a car to be given to my Sister less than a week ago. You and I, we have to be like Daniel. He fasted and prayed and he did not quit. An angel appeared to him and told him that he was fighting a prince and that is what had detained him. We can’t see what is going on in the spiritual realm, which is why we cannot give up on our prayers.

I will share my original post next week. Until then, share your prayer requests with me and I will pray for you and with you.

Thirsty Thursday: Heart Movements

While we were surviving the plague, I was not reading my Bible or meditating. I just could not read or meditate while sick this go around. I know that it really effected my mood, but I was unable to concentrate enough to put letters together to form words and words into sentences in my mind while sick and tending to other sick people. Being sick as a grown up is exhausting.

I’m finally starting to feel like I can do normal things again, like read and take showers on a regular basis. As I was getting back into meditation, my heart caught this:

From every man whose heart moves him you shall receive the contribution for me. And this is the contribution that you shall receive from them: gold, silver, and bronze, blue and purple and scarlet yarns and fine twined linen, goats’ hair, tanned rams’ skins, goatskins, acacia wood, oil for the lamps, spices for the anointing oil and for the fragrant incense, onyx stones, and stones for setting, for the ephod and for the breastpiece. Exodus 25:2b-7.

I meditated on “From every man whose heart moves him you shall receive the contribution for me.” God is going to move you to give to Him. The great thing about His movement in your heart is that He is never going to ask you to give something you don’t already have. I looked at the list of things people were going to contribute to the sanctuary. Everything from glorious gold to precious stones to ordinary lumber to boring oil was to be given. The same person who is moved to give silver is not the person who has scarlet yarn in their closet. God isn’t going to move you to sell the scarlet yarn so you can give silver. He’s going to ask you to give the precious scarlet yarn you have been saving to make that family heirloom quilt. I put myself in this list. I think God would have moved me to give oil or spices. Hunny and I eat at home more than the average person, so we have olive oil and spices for cooking. I have a few rings with precious stones in them given to me from family during childhood. Maybe God would move me to give those as contribution.

So many people in our lives have needs. Needs that God wants to use you to meet. You may hear of someone’s need that you are able to meet, someone needs work done on their house and you know how to do it, or someone needs encouragement and you send them a positive message. But there will be times you hear of a need that you aren’t meant to meet. You don’t have extra money to support a missionary. You don’t have the time to tutor your friend’s child in math. You can’t meet the need. But you can pray. You can pray for that person to be patient and wait on the Lord. You can pray for the people who are supposed to meet the need that they will contribute and won’t loose out on the blessing of giving. You can pray.

I’m praying for you right now.

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Project Positivity (Week One, Take Two)

Wow, you guys.  Wow.

Week one, take two lasted two days.  Two.  But the second time around, I learned something.  Something invaluable.  I know the best way to change your attitude.  I’ve known it all along, and I somehow forgot the way.

Prayer.

If your attitude is bad towards someone, pray.  If their attitude is bad toward you, pray.  If your attitude is bad toward work, pray.  If your attitude is bad toward your family, pray.

PRAY.

Praying for people who have wronged you is never easy.  At first.  Afterward, you wonder why you waited so long to pray for them.  Even when they are still crappy toward you and you wish you never had to associate with them again (That sounded a little specific.  Oops.).  Keep praying and never give up!

I’m not going to stop meditating.  I’m not going to stop attempting to fit exercise into my crazy kid filled life.  But I am going to stop this project, because  I believe what I was looking for I had with me the whole time.

It’s the closest thing I have to ruby slippers.

Instead, I’m going to use the next 21 days to form a writing habit.

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